mistakes since his death, but I am learning and healing. I miss him so much, i find my self just sitting looking out the window crying for hours on end,because i want to touch him tell him i love him hold him. its very painful to type everything I went thru as he passed but I believe in my heart I done everything he wished to happen. I have 3 of his boys that will carry there Fathers name and memory forever, i LOOK INTO THEIR eyes and I see him, he lives thru them and thru me and his family. HE must never ever be forgotten, I will remember him forever, I am not saying that I wont be human, but I know the love we shared was real,we may have clashes like the Titans BUT I know his love was real and true and deep. I miss him, and sometimes I wish I could just go be with him, but I can't I have to continue to live for my children...But its so hard when love is taken from you. I tried to replace it and it wasn't real, it was an infatuation, a loneliness I tried so hard to fill, but I am telling you that void can not be filled, the pain and the aching are so full that you feel like your gonna explode. I am trying to deal with this all in my own way and truthfully its not going so good. I love him and want him back but nothing can bring him back to me, he is gone and i am all alone with out him i must learn to face the darkness alone.
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